A little girl's poetry

From the same bloodline we are
Fire through my poisoned rings
Liquor for my fame and tears
A mistake will bring the awakening
Stain of dark between my eyes
Shadow feelings for my lovers
You should stay and play a game

Pay attention to the brownies
Give them food, but never money
Insult them and you’ll drink fears
Vivid dreams and sleep paralysis.
Be a lover, not a foe, lovely human!
Embrace the spirit of the Goddess
She’s our mother and family is all

Dance with us, the unbroken circle
Fly in the sparkle of the night
They tickle you, just feel the presence
Blessed in the middle of the forest
Lost in the corner of the street
Royal is the water, the purity itself
Check out the shrooms, pull over there

This night we should pray
This night we should love
We should rise like the sun
We should dance like the waves
Just get wild and be free!

A blessed Yule we will have
Dancing and chanting loud
Everything is aligned
Let the nature do it’s rite!

Evergreen in the house
Burning fire through the night
And we celebrate
For the new sun and the new life
Let the nature do it’s rite!

An old dream wiped off dust
Diffused light in the background
From tabac sign, I’m feeling safe
Found my home on a foreign land

Flowers on the coffee table
Smoking a cigar, drinking a beer
Admiring the paintings, the walls
I’m cozy in his colorful shirt

Good music for my heart
The power of red in my bones
The smell of green in my mind
Blue vibes everywhere

Love-A-Lot or don’t love at all
Feeling free to live in my world
Silent is the key and a comma
Escaped from a social cage

I’m leaving, I’m moving, I’m flying away
I’ll be sad ‘til the end of the day
Money and hopes for a brighter future
At least, my saviour can be the nurture
Shovels to dig, I won’t taste the ground
Diamonds mean luck, I hear the sound

Inner sickness, a pill isn’t enough for a soul
Honey in the music, tears drop for a goal
Hard working everyday, I won’t stop
For Christmas I’ll empty the shop

Stories before the sleep at first
My mind is loud and it will burst
Tomorrow brings new beginnings
My books come with old feelings
The intuition says I’m gonna be fine
I believe in my powers, I can be divine

Falling in the dark with angels by my side
The worst things I’ve done wink in pale red
Rainbow of chocolate flows under my feet
Shades of emptiness, but flowers of hope
I’m dreaming myself, but not the mirror’s look

Skinny Angora jumping around the stars
Freedom of the sky, I feel it in my smile
Mushrooms, white powder and acid too
I’m losing my thoughts, they run so fast

Baby’s laughing, I’m crying with pure tears
My sun is hiding. Go freak out that moon!
I’m wearing glasses, bigger heart on my face
Don’t wake up tonight- my promise
Never wake up- your funny threat
Good night! … wait, heaven?

Do me a favor, I’ll catch you under my spell
Delight my tastes with a cherry ice cream
I want more and more from you, please offer
Between us is a heavenly affection, daddy

Dance with my body on a poetic rythm
Increase my sensuality by winking at me
Be deeply connected, discover my desire
Listen to my lullaby while I’m fancying you

For a night, I’ll be your Lolita with the attitude
For a life, I’ll be the best dream or fantasy
Keep our secret safe, we have total intimacy
I’ll never be yours, daddy, but I’m still with you

Can’t get rid of that memory
Your weight on top of my tiny body
Slowly breathe, I tried to stop it
I was ashamed to scream at you
Saying „no, please, I’m not in the mood”
My words were in vain

„What he will think about me?
What’s he gonna say to his friends?
That I’m a little girl and not worthy?
Should I really try to stop him?
How bad can it get? Still blocked”

You left me there
So miserable, so gross
A tear ran from my eye
Years after I promised that
I’ll never stay quiet again.
Girl, you shouldn’t too

Beautiful skin with no wrinkles
Eyes shaded only by makeup
Indecisiveness before taking action
Energy from sun felt in the bones
Happiness by getting drunk
Party hard by the sea in the midnight
Dancing and smoking and laughing

Dreams for future and no ideas
Making plans with your best friends
Depression is the evolution stage
Highschool or college in the morning
Underpaid jobs in the summertime
Sleeping in the car with an open window

Making love in random places
No protection and no one cares
Inspired by movies with rough moves
Playing songs in the background
Pleasure in the muscles, in the veins
No shame in laying down all naked

Swimming in the pool, the summer
Running into the woods, the autumn
Drinking hot tea and coffee, the winter
Pictures with flowers in the hair, the spring

The power of teen years is priceless
Hippie style in another century
Rain could be so romantic
A smile represents our spirit
Feel everything and learn anything

I never felt so lonely in my life
Now tasting the sorrow of tears
Bitterness of the poisoned words
They keep screaming non-senses
I cry when I give them a color in my heart
Blacker than a black hole
My mind is played by evil streams
In the shadow of the dark sun
I’m destroyed, I’m in their cage

Live alone, die alone
Illusions seem to be reality
Sickness of a soul
Pain is a way of living
Wasting my skill of surviving
I’m going down, falling from the sky

Insane. Madness. Creepy.
They terrify me with their thoughts
Under my bed is safer than outside the room
Drugs save my mind
I can’t hate, I’m just afraid

Always a child inside
Writing my death with seashells
Asking the stars if they want to help

Catch the idea, save me.

Nothing really happened
I opened my eyes in the midnight
Started to cry and realised
I had it.

I’m feeling sick and weak
I’m not ready yet to face the life
And I won’t let them to see the truth
My lies keep me perfectly fine
I wonder how long will it take
I will die soon or they will see how crazy I am?

„Why are you so sad?
So melancolic and antisocial?
You don’t like us?
What is your problem?
Why don’t you speak?
You’re so mysterious and weird.”

Laying down and cry all night
Going to the bathroom and hide my tears
Cough before a phone call
Forge a smile and put glasses on my red eyes

„We sorry for how we treated you
It wasn’t ok it happened to you
You deserve better than this
Did you ever try a psychologist?
You should get some help”

A maniac stage and a normal one
Knock on my mind’s door
And make my situation worse
Because I’m wearing a mask
But after a while, the depression says „hi”