Scared by the shame
Lost in the game
Tears from red eyes
Anger from lies

No possibility of change
And a wish for revenge
Trusting no one else
They ring the bells

Left arm for easy hide
Tie a string very tight
Clench the fist before
opening the drugstore

Pure gold in the veins
Destroying the chains
Tasting the freedom
My friend is a demon

Warming up my body
More than opium poppy
More than morphine
This time feels „all in”

Look down at lighter
Seeing the life brighter
The spoon got dirty
The mind talks jerky

Heaven closed my eyes
So I can fly to sunrise
Stay there forever
Going back never

Dreams end after trip
The pain travels deep
In my bones and muscles
Now advise me for troubles

„Goodbye, everybody!
I’m an addict,
A druggie.
RIP my past life,
my hopes and fears,
my old friends.
Now I have no one,
but heroin.”



Started with a little funny joke
Said by a weird, unknown bloke
But somehow I took it seriously
And checked google curiously

I wasn’t fat, neither a supermodel
My favorite habit was to dawdle
Put some weight in time, not much
Ate a lot of unhealthy food at lunch

My anorexia began ‘cause of pics
With modern skinny, fake chicks
And diets based on water and air
Looked at my body, it wasn’t fair

Best solution at that time: starvation
Till my energy remained without ration
My mind got sick ‘cause of frustration
Needed salvation to give me medication

Can’t live with an eating disorder
Have to put my life in order
Don’t need problems with my teeth
Health of mind, body or breathe